It is easier said than done.. it shld never be like this but it turn out to be.. i wished it could be an illusion but no..its a fact.. how i wish it was a dream and never happen.. but no... it happen right in my face..its a reality which i have to face..maybe because of something i shldnt said in the first place..but what else can i say..i am trying to find the path which leads me out of this but one thing just keep holding me back.. One thing that is hard to refuse. its amazing that it happens and its trying to test my personality and emotions..

Yearn for it and i shun it.. cry for it and i backed out. hope for it and it diminished.
and every time i tried to wash it away.but it re-ignited. it became stronger, i cant resist.
what lies ahead i may not know but i am sure i will accept and carry on.